Were they your ideas? Or someone else's? Whatever your reasons, decisions will only limit you. You've decided, so you can't change it, even if it's no longer working for you.
Questions on the other hand will help you see possibilities you might not have been willing or able to see before. Questions will empower you to choose consciously what you'd really like.
So if you'd like to create the life you'd really like, ask 'What have I decided I must be?'followed by 'If I could choose anything, who and what would I be?'
You may choose exactly the same as you are now. Or you may not. In either case, the choice will be consciously yours, so how will you feel about it? The same or different?